Conservation to Myself/ Reflecting
I cannot get caught “out there” next time. Hell, am I losing my mind? I don’t want it to be a next time. I have to move a lot more responsibly. I can’t worry about the people who are trying to knock my new hustle either. I have a family to take care of. If I was of no importance they wouldn’t even mention my name. Prison and hard times are not at the end of this road. This path I am choosing is sure to put a smile on my family’s face. Breaking the bank might even be a byproduct. Everyone knows that there is nothing wrong with that. I understand my struggles so all my success will be appreciated.
I can remember back to sitting in the county jail extremely depressed about everything. I remember being able to stand up and touch both walls in my cell. I remember the wool blanket, travel size shampoo, soap, lotion. And tiny meals too, or were they travel size too? I remember using the bathroom with the open bars. I remember watching the TV with little to no reception. I remember the constant noise all day and night and I remember taking a shower in a space that both of my shoulders could not fit in. The shower head would remind you of any typical water fountain in America. I remember having only four sets of white undergarments and having to wash my clothes in the toilet and sink with the same soap I used to wash up with. I remember rationing out my deodorant so it would last me the whole week because the travel size wasn’t nearly enough. I remember.
Understand my struggle so you can respect my hustle. I am never coming back here, believe that. Never, I am cool on this. It is first-class living from the day I get out. I WILL NEVER SETTLE FOR LESS, EVER AGAIN. That goes for communication, personal relationships, housing, education, friendships, and travel arrangements. Everything. I have the fire in my eyes.
April 9, 2009 at 10:44 am
I love reading your blogs man, really teach me a lot about not making mistakes to end up where you are. God bless you and i hope you are out soon.
April 9, 2009 at 1:24 pm
Good day Maurice, I hope when you are released that you read all the feed back and see how many people think highly of you and your new found attitude. You should read this book If you get a chance. GOALS- by Brian Tracy. It helped me understand a lot. Its on Itunes as well. Check It out.
-Alex Brown
April 9, 2009 at 2:23 pm
Stay strong MC. I rooted for you when you were wearing my school’s colors. I rooted for you when you were falling on hard times. Most importantly I am rooting for you in getting all you want and that you build a new productive life.
April 9, 2009 at 9:19 pm
you inspire a lot of people man including myself to choose the correct path hang in there MC
April 9, 2009 at 9:37 pm
after reading some of you posts what made you lose interest in sports… in one post you said you really haven’t followed sports since 2003
April 9, 2009 at 9:42 pm
Call for details of vision
April 10, 2009 at 12:52 am
Maurice:
I don’t write often (only once before), but I read every day. Your writings have given me the inspiration to deal with the problems in my life, which now seem trivial in perspective. If nothing else, understand that your experience improved the life of 1 person. Be strong, stay close to your family, and I pray for the best in every aspect of your life.
April 10, 2009 at 7:32 pm
Keep your Head up, the future is yours for the taking. Us Buckeye fans are still routing for you!
April 11, 2009 at 5:13 pm
I started reading your blogs and now I cant stop. Inspired. Thanx Good to see you got the ship headin straight. Keep up the good