I can’t get any sleep. Now that my mandatory time is winding down, I always get caught up thinking about going home. Lord knows I try to keep my mind focused on the moment but I can’t stop thinking about my freedom. It is almost like the feeling I got when it was time to graduate high school. I am ready to begin the next chapter of my life. Even though there is nothing guaranteed with me getting out early I am still optimistic and hopeful that the state will see it fit to let me get my life back. A few irresponsible choices really altered my life. I can’t cry or complain though, I can only move on.
Even though I am not getting a lot of sleep, I still have to complete my daily duties. That is a part of the game of life. I have to execute my tasks and do them as if I had ten hours of sleep. A few cups of coffee can go a long way in a situation like this. There is no time for me to lie down and recover. I have business to handle.
I respect the amount of time that was given to me. It has really made me appreciate my life and it has shown me some of the things I took for granted. Growing up in the inner city I always knew what it was for people to go to prison but experiencing it firsthand is totally different. Contrary to popular belief, life is not a game to be played. As usual though, I am going to continue to handle my business and keep fulfilling my life’s vision. The greatest men and women on earth have days like this. Character is built during these times. I will let myself know if I really want what I say I want out of life by the actions I display today. I have to stay focused.