My Vision
Visiting…Is it a good thing or a bad thing? I always ask myself that question when my family is coming to see me. I am always restless the night before as if it is some major event, Funny right? Prior to my visit Sunday I had been up since 2 AM. I am an early bird but 2 AM is a little extreme. I couldn’t fall back asleep to save my life. I tossed, turned, and watched everything on TV to try and get me to go back to sleep. Nothing worked. I was just sitting up thinking about them getting prepared to make the drive up. First and foremost, I always worry about their safe arrival. Second, I always hope that they will enjoy themselves despite the physical surroundings. Yesterday, they did not let me down and we all had a good time.
As usual, my little girl, came running up to me as soon as she seen me. I love that little girl. As she came running up to me, she held her little arms out for me to pick her up. As I picked her up to hug her, I told her to give me a kiss and she did. She kept saying, “Let’s go see Mommy and Maw Maw.” She kept directing me back to the table where my girlfriend and mother were seated. They had smiles on their faces as I hugged and kissed them also. To make a long story short, we shared a lot of jokes and laughs on the visit. Jayden kept everyone entertained by being the center of attention. She had a ball going back and forth to the vending machines. She swears she is my little waitress. Every time something drops down in the machine she always makes sure she is the one to run it back to me. Yesterday, I finally realized there is an unwritten rule; whenever I get ready to eat anything Jayden ALWAYS gets the first bite. She makes me laugh every time.
Needless to say, I had a good time. I love to see them come but it hits home when they leave. Hopefully it will not be that long before I get to be surrounded by their love every day. I am taking it all one day at time. This time has really tested the love, patience, strength, and authenticity of my three most important relationships and I can say they all are 100% real. Their actions have spoken for themselves. It is not easy to support someone locked away. Prior to this blog, I had been forgotten about. I want to thank my family for helping to keep my spirit alive.
April 6, 2009 at 7:32 pm
glad to hear you had a good time maurice!
April 6, 2009 at 8:43 pm
Family is the foundation of life. I was sitting on active duty away from my family during the holidays when you helped win the 2002 National Championship. As a former Ohio State Marching Band member, it was hard not to be able to watch the game…. It was even harder, though, to be away from my family. Your priorities are grounded.
You don’t know me. I don’t know you. But I wish you the very best life has to offer. Stay strong.
April 7, 2009 at 7:58 am
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April 7, 2009 at 1:45 pm
JayJay does a lot to brighten the days of a lot of people in the family and whether you know it or not SHE makes it easier for the people closest to you to deal with the fact that you are away. She is truly a prize and I enjoy every minute of every conversation (yes with a 2 yr old), and every story that she reads (or memorizes) to me, or every new discovery that she makes. She is an amazing little girl and I am sure you see that everytime she comes to visit. I cant wait for you to get home so that you can really be her “Daddy the Explorer”!
April 7, 2009 at 3:44 pm
Its good to see your family supporting you through all you went through. You had a wild ride for a while there. From the beginning for you college career to your incarceration was a whril wind. I always wanted to see you make it in the pros and I figured going to the broncos was just what you needed. But dont feel bad we all make poor decisions which lead to bad results. Trust me I had my fair share and I still have to fight off stupidity sometimes now. Your still young and have alot of choices. My sister told me one of the greatest things one time. She said in life we all have doors to open but some doors should stay closed. She told me that when she saw how I changed for the worst. But keep you head up do what you do and remember that phase and you’ll be fine. Have a good one.
April 7, 2009 at 9:33 pm
I admire you for posting these thoughts. You must love your daughter very much. I am soon to be a Grandma…..and cannot wait! I love my daughters very much…..they inspire me.
April 7, 2009 at 9:45 pm
you are very lucky to have such a supportive and loving family!