Attitude for the Latitude
Prison has been beneficial on a lot of levels for me. One benefit is that it has put me in a mode of being mentally intense and serious 24/7. It forces me to be aware, analytical, and critical of all my daily words and actions. I’ve trained myself to stay focused on my personal mission in life. I think it all stems from a major unspoken rule back here and that is to mind 100% of your business 100% of the time. I’ll be sure to carry that motto with me outside of these walls.
It is game day every day for me. It is judgment day every moment of every day. It is only one way to play the game of life, and that is to play to win. Winning is a way of life. Winning is the only way. I no longer recognize or identify with the poor mentalities or mind states of the universe. I study hard, train hard, eat hard, sleep hard, vision big, think big, act big, and yet I still walk and talk with a sense of humility and peace. I’m so sincere people. I am so serious.
I crushed my mother’s heart when I came here. She was devastated on so many emotional and psychological levels. I can remember watching her cry in the courtroom as I was sentenced. I can never remember feeling like a bigger failure. That memory and those feelings will always inspire, motivate, and keep me on my grind. This cannot be the last memory of me. I will not allow it. I let down a lot of people including myself, but there is nothing that compares to letting your mother down. She deserves more. She did and still does a lot for me on so many levels. In saying that, I want to thank prison for breeding the attitude to reach new latitudes.